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Pole, take 2 [Wednesday May 28th, 2008 at 9:02pm ] [ mood | floating.... ] [ music | Kellen settling in for the night ] For those of you who are unaware of the goings on around here, I am going off to the Guide Dog Foundation to get my very first guide dog. However, I need the help of yall to finalize something. My training space needs a name! So... Poll #1195450 What should I call my guide dog journal? Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: None I don't want to use my real name for my journal, nor do I want the word dog to be in the title. So what other name should I use? phoenix_rising (4) 1 (8.3%) eyesofthephoenix (7) 5 (41.7%) phoenix_in_ny (3) 0 (0.0%) phoenixinflight (6) 2 (16.7%) Other (was suggested I use my regular journal for posting) 4 (33.3%) If you have another suggestion other than the "use same journal," what would it be? Those of you who have voted in the first pole need not do so again; the number of votes are in parenthesies next to the name, I left the percentages out. I will be setting the new journal (whatever the name with the most votes is) up on Sunday night, the night before I fly out to New York to start the training. I do hope everyone is having a lovely evening. Until the next stretch of wings... the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 5

Happy birthday; day's events [Saturday May 24th, 2008 at 11:11pm ] Happy birthday to 3kitties!!! I hope your day was a good one! ( cut for child TMI. ) We went back to the MRC tonight, Mom and I did, anyway, and even though we bought tickets, we didn't win anything in any of the three raffles they had, but being back there was really nice. I got to sing again, and I played my flute a little; Mom brought her drum and played it while there. We came home to Kellen watching Fival goes west; I told the rest above. He's now in bed after yet another tantrum, dear gods three year olds! I'm not sure what's in store for tomorrow, probably a walk since I haven't been able to get really any in for te last couple of days. We usually have acook-out, even if it's just us in this house; Sometimes, thoughe we *do* have Grandpa over, so I'm not sure what'll hapen yet on that front. ::hugs:: for all and stay safe. Until the next stretche of wings... the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 46

the first crak at therealljidol [Thursday May 22nd, 2008 at 6:17pm ] [ mood | ok ] I am... I hide, I reveal. I cloak, I steal. It is me that is the revealer of truths that some cannot face on their own. Many things I know; many secrets I hold, and I only reveal them to those who will listen; those who are wise to my sounds know them, those who hide in the shadows of me; they are the ones who live my secrets. There are even those who live in me, breathe me in, make their life by me. I am not only found outside, but inside as well, I am carried by those who know what it is like to be alone, to be scared. Yet others find peace with me, and many more love the comfort I hold for them. Many seak my peace, mental and emotional, and even sometimes, spiritual. Many like the anonimity I give them, for in my darkness they cannot be seen, I hide them, I cloak them. I reveal my secrets to them, I steal their faces. I reveal their truths to them. I steal their innocence sometimes, and hold it until I find someone who needs it. Then I cloak them in it, swaddle them like a babe with it. To those who call to me, I am there, to those who do not mean to call for me, but do, I am also there. I steal shapes; turn them into shadows; I steal shadows, turn them into shapes. There are those who know me, and only me; they walk in me wherever they go. I am in them just as surely as the blood in the vaine. They are in me, just as a fish is in the sea. There are those who come to know me, and I scare them, sometimes for a while until they grow used to me; some never do. Anonimity, it lives where I am, where my shadows fall, there are those who will hear me, every time I fall. They will hide in me. In me, they are free; in me, none will see. In me they have anonimity. Yet in me, sometimes they find themselves, yet in me, they see themselves. They, the ones who find their way through me, THey are the ones who are strong, they are the ones then, who will always know their way, They will never again be truly led astray. I am the night; I will not reveal my own; in me they are never alone. For I am their comfort, their life: I am their strength. I am their friend, from now until their journey's end. the Phoenix This has been my entry for therealljidol on the free topic: anonimity. The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 6

The pole is finally here! [Sunday May 4th, 2008 at 9:16pm ] [ mood | relaxed ] Ok yall, I've been wanting to do this for a couple of weeks now, and I would like to have this up and going at least a little bit before I leave for the Guide Dog Foundation. So... Poll #1182613 What should I call my dog training journal? This poll is closed. Open to: Friends, detailed results viewable to: Friends I don't want to use my real name, so I want to know what other names I should use? phoenix_rising 4 (19.0%) eyesofthephoenix 7 (33.3%) phoenix_in_ny 3 (14.3%) phoenixinflight 6 (28.6%) other. 1 (4.8%) If you chose other, what would you suggest? I'd rather not have the word "dog" in the name either please. :) thanks much. I will be posting another entry later- maybe. It all depends on whether or not I crash first. It's been a long day, folks. the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 10

I'm thinking now... [Wednesday April 9th, 2008 at 12:31pm ] [ mood | contemplative ] I'm sitting here with thoughts running through my head, and it all started yesterday when I was talking to my aunt about things, and was giving her the quick and dirty explanation of my situation in life ( which can be found here. ) So their new plan is to have me get my dog, have me move out and into my own place, find me yet another work experience (thankfully not at the same place I was) and help me find more local friends down here. But right now I'm stuck, litterally because I have almost no knowledge of the bus system down here except for the paratransit stuff that comes straight here, and mom's so concerned about me walking the neighborhood because we have two sex offenders whose houses I have to pass on the way to the bus stop. And we have no sidewalks, and cars have a tendency to speed through here like it's some sort of race track. So, I didn't give my aunt all of this, but she did start to brainstorm with me, and the topic of massage therapy came up, and she asked me if I thought about looking into that. It had been sitting in the back of my mind, but I really hadn't invested much thought into it, only because I wasn't sure there was a senter (yet again) close enough to me where I could go to learn such things. I know it would help in the long run, especially since I really really do want to finish my reiki training and become a master, and I've been told by others that I do give good massages in the few times I've come up behind somebody and rubbed their neck and back. So tell me, do you think it would work? And what sort of budget would I be looking at here? I know I'd have to pay for this myself; DBS wouldn't because I've already used up their educational allotment for me, and I doubt they would be willing to put me through another program. I've yet to even broach this to my parents, because at the moment I'm going off on this whole musical instrument tangent that is literally driving my mom insane. She's telling me I need to find the one instrument I have a passion for and focus on it, but I'm still trying to find out which one that is. I have quite a few in the room as it is, some of which haven't been played in about four maybe five months at least. But every time I come up with this one question "What is it that brings you the most joy--that's what you should do." The first two things are always music and writing, with Reiki being a close third to those two. So... what do yall think? X-posted to mystic_cafe the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 3

Rainy New Year's day [Tuesday January 1st, 2008 at 11:41am ] And the games begin... It's raining, which means I'm feeling lazy. Which inturn neand I don't feel like doing crap today. Including putting the finishing touches on at least one of the myriad kiricula I have to do for work- Work that resumes two days from now. ug... I'm not minding the rain, though; we need it. It's been raining for most of the day though; I woke up to it at about eight this morning and I'll be posting this almost a half-hour before noon. I suppose I can aford to procrastinate just a bit longer- But not really all that much. I'm finding it increasingly hard to pull all of this stuff together, and I really don't know why. I'm trying to think of it in terms of the clients being worth it; worth the time and effort, and it helps a little, but I'm still finding it difficult to actually sit down and do *something, anything* with all of the information I've been given to work with. THere's just so much; and I didn't realize how much until I started going out and asking questions, and getting suggestions. It could take one *months* to do just one kiriculum on just one program, even if you spent two-three hours a day at it- At least. Somehow I am beginning to wonder if I've taken on too much, just too much. But then I rememer, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes

Attention: All parents/and others who deal with children. I'm asking you not to skip this cut, just this once. [Thursday November 8th, 2007 at 9:30am ] [ mood | flabbergasted ] [ music | nothing ] ( ALL PARENTS *PLEASE* Read! ) Agreed... I need say no more... edit: SOrry about earlier, have fixed the HTML the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 11

Things. [Saturday October 27th, 2007 at 6:30pm ] Yesterday saw me making the now weekly trip to MRC to get the rest of the stuff I need for Samhain. I've scaled down my plans just a bit for the candles, but other than that I have just about everything I need, and the one or two things I didn't get can be added in later. I've met a really nace man there, who seems very willing to help me develop certain things, which is quite nice, I think. Other than that and the usual RP tags/loong night out session, a few musical transfers (both sending and recieving), not much else went on. Today's guitar lesson focused on power chords and teaching us how to keep time and different techniques on how to mute the strings. Other than the ride coming a bit earlier than expected, something I'm getting used to, the lesson went really well, and I even got lunch out of the deal, which was super awesome. :p Then later on my dad made pork chops in one of those stand-alone steamers, and they were pretty good, too. Now I'm just chillin' in front of the computer and about to jump online for a bit. Have a good Saturday, everybody! ::hugs:: Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes

I, cannot, be-lieve this! [Thursday July 19th, 2007 at 12:43am ] [ mood | enraged/more than fuming! ] [ music | squeaky fanblades ] I found theis email on one of my friend's journal ,and it makes me so, so so, fucking angry? How can anyone justify doing anything like this? please, pleas readd! Comment here or there. I'll bechecking both places... though she'll be likely to respond just as readily as I will. Thank you aerdran Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 2

OK people [Saturday April 7th, 2007 at 12:49pm ] This is being posted by me, forgive me for those of you who will get this twice... I'm not really good at writing up letters of protest, but those of you who are... pleas go read this Warning, those who are victems of r*pe might have a hard time with this. It's disgusting, and I'm surprised anyone can still get away with this. going to be x-posted to betherevolution The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 2

weee! [Friday March 23rd, 2007 at 9:27am ] [ mood | bouncy/chipper ] [ music | birds outside my window ] It's a good morning, and I've just through my F-list... oh manifest_now? Those affirmations ar *awesome!* Heh... I'm greatful for those, for coffee, for helpful mothers, for being ahead in my classes, for my cat who's being taken care of at home, and for Role play that goes on throught the day! I'm also greatful for the little cereal bowls that all you have to do is add milk to them. The boles are useful for so many other things too. He. Today's going to consist of polishing up the description of my office for class on Tuesday, working on one of the last three questions for a paper do in the next couple of weeks for Doctor Roca, and a serious sit down with the other project for same. Oh- and I need to slide about ten pages worth of class reading in there somewhere! :d Anyway, lett's see how on task I stay today, shall we? Off I fly! the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 4

woo! [Wednesday December 6th, 2006 at 5:03pm ] [ mood | Kind of achy and whatever ] I sort of thought this was nifty. :p just me, I suppose! ? You Were Born Under: Full of spunk, you are the original party animal. You bring fun, activity, and stimulation to any event. Self-control is not one of your strong points; you have been known to over indulge. Cheerful and energetic, you can turn the most boring thing into something fun. You are most compatible with a Rat or Dragon. What Year Were You Born Under? Have a good day all! the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 2

A way of dealing with anti-semitism [Saturday December 2nd, 2006 at 2:01pm ] I'm reposting this from devils_sidekick On a NW Airways flight from Atlanta, GA., a middle-aged, well to do woman found herself sitting next to a man wearing a kipa (aka "yarmulka" in Yiddish). She called the attendant over to complain about her seating. "What seems to be the problem Madam?" asked the attendant. "You've sat me next to a Jew!! I can't possibly sit next to this disgusting person. Find me another seat!" "Please calm down Madam." the attendant replied. "The flight is very full today, but I'll tell you what I'll do. I'll go and check to see if we have any seats available in club or first class." The woman shoots a snooty look at the snubbed Jewish man beside her (not to mention many of the surrounding passengers). A few minutes later the attendant returns. The woman cannot help but look at the people around her with a smug and self satisfied grin. The flight attendant then says..."Madam, unfortunately, as I suspected, economy is full. I've spoken to the cabin services director, and club is also full. However, we do have one seat in first class." Before the lady has a chance to respond, the attendant continues..."It is most extraordinary to make this kind of upgrade, however, and I have had to get special permission from the captain. But, given the circumstances, the captain felt that it was outrageous that someone should be forced to sit next to such a person."... With which, she turned to the Jewish man sitting next to her, and said: "So if you'd like to get your things, sir, I have your seat in first class ready for you..." At this point, the surrounding passengers stood and gave a standing ovation, while the Jewish man walksup to the front of the plane. Shabbat shalom. "All that it takes for evil to triumph, is for good people to do nothing I wonder if I shouldn't post this elsewhere, too? The Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 65

woe! Just... woe! [Thursday November 30th, 2006 at 1:46pm ] I'm stealing this of chrisondra Just, wtf? I'm not too sure I like this, but, OK, whatever. Just whatever. Ok... wtf? The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 4

gay rights [Tuesday October 3rd, 2006 at 11:51am ] "Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" - Ernest Gaines We would like to know who really believes in gay rights on LiveJournal. There is no bribe of a miracle or anything like that. If you truly believe in gay rights, then repost this and title the post as "Gay Rights". If you don't believe in gay rights, then just ignore this. Thanks. Yep, that's me. Especially since I met a gay couple yesterday, and they walked me to my class. And, they're not the only one I know. The Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 8

wtf? [Monday September 11th, 2006 at 1:13pm ] [ mood | pissed off ] OK you all, I'm going to make this short, sweet, and to the pointt. ( this article ) seriously pissed me off. like, so seriously. So much for equality around here. I'd really like to take some of these people and knock sense into them! No, fuck it. I'd like to ring their necks, too. This shit has got to stop. It's just got to. the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 16

ho hum [Wednesday August 30th, 2006 at 1:31pm ] the internet is working, and was when I posted the other deal. Even though I couldn't get on IE or messengers or anything which was weard. I was able to send and recieve emails, though which is good because there was something I wanted to send to my mom so she could check certain smal details and things. If there is anyway to get jaws to tell you where paragraphs ar, I would appreciate knowing this. Advanced editing of stories makes this necessary, and it's sort of hard for me to know where one starts and the other begins without double spacing them, which makes it rather inconvinient when then the line spacing itself is doubled, because then it doubles, the space between the paragraphs. So...yeah I'd apprecciate some assistance here please. ::laughs:: Now it's off to eat and do some more homework, bleh! the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 4

I'm testing he internet. [Wednesday August 30th, 2006 at 12:27pm ] Sorry for the short post. The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes

a rare public entry [Saturday August 12th, 2006 at 3:36pm ] [ mood | hungry ] Shadow Moon Shadow Dawn Shadow Star The author is Chris clairemont SP, also George Lucas helps to write these, if anyone wants to know ::deit:: it's claremont, someon on AIM just told me. LOL, so now that the spelling is correct... Etexts, please if anyone has them? I'm serious: audio abridged books suck when it comes to this type of story...I won't have just that to go on anymore! If you have them, comment, and I'll send the email to where you can send them. I'd much appreciate it. Please and thank you much! The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes 4

public entry for once. [Sunday June 18th, 2006 at 2:48pm ] [ mood | frustrated ] OK... this is for those who have added me and don't have English as their first journaling language. If you use spanish, fine, because my screen reader can deal with that, and I can figure out what you're saying by that. However, those of you who have other languages that are not in my screen readers *very limited* supply of languages, I will not add you, simply because I will not be able to enjoy your journals as they are meant to be enjoyed, and not out of any rudeness to you personally. However, if you are willing to put at least a sentence or two describing the gist of your entry, I may consider doing so. the two who have done this are _edel_ and e_shmeleva I hate calling you both out, but your journalling language isn't something my screen reader can handle. Being blind, unfortunately, does have some drawbacks. If you're adding me to get a better sense of Inglish, comment, and I may considder adding you. However, don't expect comments from me. I'm trying to be flexible here, but having to go through what sounds like blank lines and silences in the screen reader's speaking does get annoying very very fast. I hate being this way, but I just can't see adding people whose journals I am not able to read properly. the Phoenix The Phoenix Sings ‡ Silvery Notes

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